Virginia M Macasaet

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AMBIVALENCE

Daughter no. 2 is moving out today.

I’m not sure what I am feeling.

 

She has plans for herself.

Starting off with living independently.

 

I welcome her plans.

She is focused and head strong.

 

I feel happy for her determination to be independent.

I welcome the loosening of space within my space.

 

But… there is a but…

I’m not sure what it is.

 

I think I will only begin to decode my feelings when she’s gone.

I’m helping her move in to her new place.

 

Only a few minutes away, but still…

This means one less head coming home each night.

 

Just me and daughter no. 1.

Nothing wrong really, it’s actually all good.

 

I’m just not sure what I am feeling.

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Stephen Evans
Changes on both sides, father and daughter. Not easy to deal with. As fearful as they make us, we celebrate them too - the essence... Read More
Saturday, 15 January 2022 16:15
Rosy Cole
There's great wisdom and peace in living 'in the moment'. Not everything needs a label. GB x
Wednesday, 19 January 2022 13:43
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Up Close and Personal with the Pandemic

While my daughter stays in isolation, I have the luxury of puttering around inside our space.

I am blessed to have enough space and a balcony to breathe.

I am blessed that the convenience of help and online services is abundant.

 

However, there is more than dealing with covid illness.

Although I am well, I have to admit, my spirit is not so well.

It’s difficult not to worry.

 

My sleep is good only because I’ve had to pop a sleeping pill.

Otherwise my mind would be awake all night.

Devoted catholic that I am, prayer does not seem enough.

 

I think more than worry, it’s this feeling that one’s world has gone haywire.

I think of my parents and wonder how they coped with WW2.

I think of 9/11 and wonder how those trapped inside managed to survive.

 

I sit in silence breathing deeply, sketching, writing, watching films online.

I prepare the daily meals and try to get a bit of exercise before the day ends.

Come sunset, I feel better knowing that I’ve survived another day.

 

I look forward to lying in my bed, reciting prayers of thanks and watching films until I fall asleep.

Surrender and faith play key roles in this pandemic.

So many thoughts running in my mind, I hope I can write them all down with ease.

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Rosy Cole
It seems you're describing what is a shared phenomenon of these days. Actually, I think much can be laid at the door of the pollut... Read More
Sunday, 09 January 2022 14:39
Virginia M Macasaet
Many thanks for the link Rosy, much appreciated! I downloaded the app too!
Monday, 10 January 2022 00:49
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When COVID Strikes

Covid has landed in my household.

I have to admit, it frightened me.

 

Thank God for vaccines and boosters.

We all had our jabs.

 

Still, it scares me.

Eldest daughter has mild symptoms.

 

A scratchy throat is what prompted the testing.

One out of four turned out positive.

 

Three of us show no symptoms at all.

Stuck at home to ride out the tide.

 

I am grateful it’s not a serious hit.

Just the discipline of riding out the wave.

 

Glad I’m a home person.

I can deal with quarantine for number of days.

 

However, I must admit that I am struggling with my mind.

The thoughts that come to surface stress me out.

 

The what if’s.

When will this end?

 

I have to be strong and block off thoughts about dad.

I can’t see him and hold his hand for now.

 

Thinking about this gives me a headache.

Sleepless nights tossing and turning.

 

I’m not sure actually what I am fretting about.

I do wish the tide mellows and this ride comes to an end soon.

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Stephen Evans
It is a fretful time - sending good thoughts and wishes for health.
Tuesday, 04 January 2022 23:27
Rosy Cole
So very sorry to hear that, Rina. Prayers for you and your family, not forgetting your dear father, that 'this ride comes to an en... Read More
Wednesday, 05 January 2022 16:38
Virginia M Macasaet
I realise that thankfully in our home the storm is mild. The challenge is all in the mind. Watching the news reports does not he... Read More
Wednesday, 05 January 2022 22:22
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A Kind Heart

My dentist, Dr. Lee fills me with his kindness.

Genuine human kindness.

 

He takes his sweet time, conversing while working on my teeth.

When done, he continues on chatting and sharing stories.

 

He doesn’t rush. 

I find myself rushing to get out, but with Dr. Lee talking, it’s hard to end the session abruptly.

 

I’ll bet he spaces his patients with more than enough time in between for conversation.

The warmth he exudes is so genuine and deeply humbles me.

 

I felt this need to write about him as this allows me to celebrate his kindness.

My sisters and my daughter say the same thing about him.

 

“Dr. Lee is the best!  He is such a kind man.”

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Rosy Cole AMBIVALENCE
19 January 2022
There's great wisdom and peace in living 'in the moment'. Not everything needs a label. GB x
Stephen Evans AMBIVALENCE
15 January 2022
Changes on both sides, father and daughter. Not easy to deal with. As fearful as they make us, we ce...
Stephen Evans The Uses of Adversity
10 January 2022
Those are my favorite too.
Virginia M Macasaet Up Close and Personal with the Pandemic
10 January 2022
Many thanks for the link Rosy, much appreciated! I downloaded the app too!
Rosy Cole The Uses of Adversity
09 January 2022
That I should like to have heard :-) Am quite in tune with the sentiments here, particularly the las...