Having read Catherine Nagle’s blog online,
Got me thinking.
I never had any regrets leaving corporate life just when my career was starting to peak. I left for reasons unconventional but I needed to work myself out. In doing so, everything else around me eventually worked their way out too.
Throughout the teen years of my daughters, I was in and out of home. I loved the travel and the time away. In their younger years, I was mostly at home raising them. I grew restless and had to get out. So I did.
Carving out my career was great fun and a worthy challenge. There were things at the home front that required more of me but my priorities were different then. I wanted to soar heights.
I discovered many places and for a while it felt like I had reached the sky.
Until one day out of the blue, I began feeling sick and tired of being out there and always on the go. So I gave up the busy life. I think I made it back home in the nick of time as the girls were embarking on college life.
I am a busier mom now than I was years ago.
Having turned 50, I’d like to think I know better too. I may have missed out on a few milestones while the girls were growing up but as young adults now, I have full view of everything going on in their lives! It’s great to see them evolve as I continue to evolve too.
My life now is paced slower and it’s fulfilling. I don’t miss being impulsive and quick as a flash. Those were fun days, living it up and living on edge but those days no longer serve me well.
Now I have time to prepare breakfast for the girls and hang around with them before we all start our mornings. I have my own time going to work in a smaller office with still enough time to put in for personal pursuits.
I love having lunch and coffee with the girls! I love the conversations we have, the discussions and petty arguments. I love going for a run with them, having a beer or two and closing my day with early quiet nights.
Motherhood is a life long task. Some miss out on the early years while others opt to do so at a later stage in life. Whatever it is, motherhood never ends. How we make use of our time is relative.
Being a stay home mom, doing laundry and cooking doesn’t make one better than the other. Career moms are great moms too and we all have our shining moments.
For me personally, my shining moment is now. The missing gaps have been filled, the search for fulfillment has ceased and today, it’s all about living well in the eyes of my daughters. I’d like to be the best example for myself for them to witness.
I know better now.