My father was a very good provider while we were growing up.
He made sure there was more than enough to meet everyone’s material needs.
Up until college, we were all educated in the best schools.
In marriage, he provided each and everyone of us with a home to live in.
I do not recall any of my material needs ever compromised due of his lack of providing.
My father is now 90 and to this day I live a very comfortable life because of him.
I am eternally grateful.
This is the image and likeness of goodness and generosity I grew up with.
It took me a while to understand my mother’s angst.
I often wondered where her unhappiness stemmed from.
My father was a hard worker and a dedicated provider.
As a child I understood that was all it took to be a good man.
I could not see my mother’s loneliness.
She craved for nurturing and conversation.
She wanted so desperately to have rapport with someone.
My mother was desperately lonely.
She took very good care of us and the home but she was all alone in her marriage.
I, unfortunately did not fare well in my own marriage.
I guess I didn’t have the right role models to look up to.
No regrets, no blame, just stating a fact of realization.
I have come to realize that HE too is the likeness and image of my father.
HE came into my life with a grand and generous plan.
A material plan that consisted of a home and all the comforts money could buy.
Naturally, I thought I had won the lottery and love was on my side.
Until the cracks began to show.
The initial rapport turned into silence.
One day out of the blue, it just became less and less.
HIS presence faded so quickly, the only thing lacking was an obituary.
One moment HE saved my day and the next HE was absent.
Not gone, just not available.
Still I loved HIM like I love my father.
I was in awe with HIS generosity of wealth because growing up it was my security.
HE no doubt, would have provided the best for my girls too.
But I think in the end, I too would have become a spitting image and likeness of my mother.
Lonely and alone in a home filled with material possessions.