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Twenty-Fifth Anniversary

Twenty-five years ago, I left home on a cross-country road trip that somehow changed the direction of my life. 

A Transcendental Journey was the first book I wrote, though not the first published. From time to time, I have shared some excerpts here with my Green Room friends. The Twenty-Fifth Anniversary Edition, with a new afterword, is available today.

I’m grateful for those who in one way or another kept me going, and especially for those who pointed the way.

 

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Never underestimate the touch of a Hand

 

 

A short visit to my father turned out to be another blessed moment with him.

Asleep at midday, I sat beside him in silence, holding his hand.

 

He squeezed my finger, letting me know he acknowledges my presence.

I stroke his forehead and he gently smiles.

 

I then place my hand on his chest and start stroking him gently.

He utters, “feels good” with a smile of content on his face.

 

How I cherish these gentle moments with my father.

How I wish he realizes how much his words and gestures strengthen me.

 

I remain grateful and blessed beyond words.

His love and affection lingers deep within me.

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THREE Words

What a joy it is for me to hear my father say, “thank you Rina.”

It’s affirmation that he still recognizes my voice.

 

Touch and sound of one’s voice keeps him company.

Barry Manilow’s music is playing as he sways gently tapping his hand on mine.

 

A gentle massage on his forehead and scratching his back bring him comfort.

Dialysis makes his skin itch.

 

He sits on his wheelchair facing the sun and the glorious morning view outside.

Unfortunately, his eyes remain shut.

 

I remind him that it’s Sunday morning and he is home.

Knowing that he is home brings him a sense of familiarity and safety.

 

Barry Manilow’s repertoire comes to an end.

It’s time for me to say goodbye.

 

“Gotta go dad, I’ll be back soon.”

“Thank you, Rina.”

 

Three words I will carry with me until my next visit to him.

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VALIDATION

Two years gone by, out of the blue I receive a heartwarming message of thanks.

A former student struggling to make graduation made it!

Long overdue but he finally made it.

 

He reached out to let me know how much he appreciated our talks and words of encouragement. 

If not for those moments, he claims he would have given up.

 

Hearing from him lifted my spirits and put me back on track with regard to my purpose.

In life, that is.

My drive comes from helping others.

 

I am reminded of my days after college, struggling to survive, no job.

$99 in my wallet.

I lived on dollar frozen pizzas until my first paycheck.

 

So yes, validation is always good to hear.

More so at midlife when you find yourself once again struggling with purpose.

Survival with purpose or merely survival to live?

 

Today is the day I re-validate my purpose in life.

It’s not merely to live.

I want to live knowing that I can continue to make a difference in helping others.

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