Aging and Illness

My father is looking more and more exhausted with dialysis.


That's what eventually happens. 

Fatigue drains him out.



He was briefly confined in the hospital for 3 days last week.

He had trouble breathing.

The X-ray revealed fluid in his lungs despite dialysis.


As I sit and watch him sleep I can see him struggle with breathing.

He  looks uncomfortable.

 

I can think no further at this point.

He is in good hands and well cared for.

 

But old age can be unforgiving if not brutal.

 

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Stephen Evans
Aging is brutal and irremediable. But in having a daughter like you, he will see his life's worth reflected back at him every mome... Read More
Saturday, 25 April 2015 05:04
Virginia M Macasaet
Thank you Stephen for your kind words. I don't think I can ever feel that I've done enough because it seems to me that the journe... Read More
Monday, 27 April 2015 07:19
Rosy Cole
Rina, it's a harrowing time for you both. Such situations alter our perspective on life. What I've found is that while fallen Natu... Read More
Saturday, 25 April 2015 23:02
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Chapter 2

Bless my father’s big heart!

The last thing he wants is to be a burden to his children.

Little does he realize how blessed it makes me feel,

That he calls on me when he needs company.

 

“Only if you feel like, otherwise it’s no problem.”

I guess he does not want me to feel obligated.

I told him to meet me at the neighborhood mall just before noon.

It’s crowded on a Sunday and I want to be sure he is not kept waiting.

 

There are Sundays that I like to spend alone.

I like doing nothing or doing errands that are not urgent.

I like my silence.

I was looking forward to this Sunday to unwind.

 

For a moment I hesitated.

Quickly I realized how precious time is with dad.

I gave myself a gentle slap on my face to snap out of my rigidity.

Today would be a good day to ask him about traveling.

 

He ate well over lunch.

I popped the question about travel.

He says he can take the length of the journey.

He just gets bored on the plane.

 

It’s seems like a toss up between California and Japan.

I laid out the pros and cons.

While Japan is only a few hours away, dialysis may be tough.

Plus moving around is not as simple as it seems.

 

After the long journey to California it gets easier.

Santa Monica, Ca. has three dialysis centers in the area.

Very close to where we intend to stay.

Plus the weather in July will be sunny by day and cool at night.

 

“Let me think about it, I will let you know.”

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Katherine Gregor
You have a good heart, Rina. I wish I had half your goodness and patience.
Sunday, 22 February 2015 10:37
Virginia M Macasaet
If truth be told Katherine, it's a tough, tough journey to practice goodness and patience. But as Stephen relates, there's more w... Read More
Monday, 23 February 2015 00:17
Jane Phillipson Wilson
Rina, It sounds like a lovely trip. xox Jane
Sunday, 22 February 2015 14:11
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Faith and Grace

 

I think about dad a lot.

I don’t see him as often as I should.

 

There is nothing to explain really.

It’s just the way things are.

 

Yes I know.

I should, I must, I have to.

 

My point is about something else.

I think about Faith and Grace a lot.

 

I do what I can to keep the faith.

I believe that with grace, nothing could ever be lost.

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Anonymous
These are nice thoughts, Virginia. Why don't you do a little biographical essay? Tell a little about yourself and where you came f... Read More
Saturday, 07 February 2015 19:27
Virginia M Macasaet
thank you charles! I may take you up on the writing challenge! :-)
Sunday, 08 February 2015 06:08
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